May 1st—Lupron begins. Injections. The IVF process has officially started. All the diagnostic tests have been completed.
We have practically simulated birth and I lived. We have let few people know as it is somehow so incredibly awkward to talk about. People ask us “what is new in your world right now?” and I have absolutely no idea how to answer them. It is so simple and yet so…not. Why is it so awkward to discuss? I mean, you hear people say “we are starting to try,” and that seems pretty awkward if you ask me. It is the nice way of saying we are having sex like rabbits to try to get pregnant. Absolutely nothing awkward about that, am I right? HA! I don’t know…I just dont know where to begin. Maybe to start off, in my case, I am jabbing myself daily with needles. AWESOME! Soon I will be doing multiple shots a day. There is nothing private or sacred or secret about this process. Talk of sperm, eggs, and fertilization, injections, follicles, embryos and petri dishes is how we are making a baby. Nothing FUN about that process. Nothing easy. Nothing private. But we are daring to dream here. So laying all emotions out there and just being real. GULP!
Dreams still so far away.
Dreams still so far away.
2 comments:
Oh Jenni you guys will get there! I will be praying for you during this journey. You are so sweet and you will be a mother one day.
I am so behind on what is going on in your life! I"m a horrible friend! :( I will be praying for you guys!
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