NO MORE POKES!

The injections have become more intense.  Lupron, Follistim, and Menopur plus a blood draw today means a very bruised arm and belly.  The combination of the meds since Saturday (so for 3 full days) I have battled an intense headache.  Praying a full on migraine doesn’t ensue however I am feeling very low and very grumpy.  Let’s blame the hormones shall we?  I am gonna.  My blood work came back immediately today and all looked perfect.  All very good news.  Another ultrasound and blood work in a couple days will most likely determine the exact dates of the egg retrieval.  All is getting very close…..It could be as soon as this weekend?  CRAZY! Silver lining is (perhaps) only a few more days of shots.  Here’s to hoping for NO MORE POKES.  Here is to dreaming of a day with no more needles. 

Dreams getting closer.  
Dare I?

Happy lil Folicles

Never have I ever been more excited during an internal ultrasound. I mean ewww.   Right ladies?  I hate those things!  But Miles was with me in the room as we met my new nurse Michelle.  SHE WAS AWESOME! I have never felt more comfortable in the most uncomfortable and vulnerable position.  My feet are in the stirrups and we were just chatting away as if we had known each other for years. Her calming nature made me feel at ease and she walked both Miles and I through all the pictures flashing on the 3D monitor.  She showed us all of the tiny lil follicles inside my ovaries and it was so encouraging.  She saw no cysts and assured us that everything looked “happy and perfect”.  She is vey invested in her patients.  She has pictures of her patient’s embryo babies on her phone.  She prays for them and talks to them daily.  Might sound a little odd but it melted my heart.   I LOVE HER! I have never said that about someone like her before, a NURSE.  She was wonderful.  Michelle gave me permission to call her after hours with any questions I have throughout this entire process.  WHO DOES THAT?  She also walked me through the more intense shots starting this weekend.  It was great to have Miles there to learn the multi step processes and how to switch needles and hand mix the different medicines.  My Dude really impressed me.  Happy.  She saw LOTS of happy little follicles.  That is good news.  And we got a glimpse of something GOOD on the monitors. Thus far those ultrasounds have shown nothing but bad news—from cysts on my ovaries to tubal pregnancies. Never has and ultrasound ended with good news. I was pretty excited. 
I needed this.  I needed to focus happy on something. 

Could I be ready to start to dream?

So....the Shots

The shots are going alright. The lovely women I blog-stock on YouTube taught me how to do them and I am feeling more and more confident as the days go on. Yes, I know. SO professional right?  I have not have any reactions or side effects from the Lupron so far. I hate the feeling of the needles going in my tummy. I suppose that is one good thing of having a bit of tummy to work with. No chance of stabbing an internal organ with the spare tire I have around my waist. I still have to psych myself into stabbing my tummy with needles as it seems so contrary to everything within me. They are not painful but very odd. I am not sure I will ever be “used” to them, but I am not so sure that I would want to be. I can see myself getting more confident in administering them. We shall see. The trigger shot (HCG) is still looming over me. Oh the fun ahead of me. Trying not to freak out over that. I swear the needles is 5 inches long. I am sure that is an over exaggeration but honestly, not by much.

For now , I am thankful each shot is easy and not painful. I have noticed only slight itching after each injection and it doesn’t last long.

 

A slew of appts with doctors and ultrasounds and bloodwork is in store for me in the weeks ahead.

 

Daring to Dream…