Not So Happy lil Follicles

The last week has been filled with blood tests and ultrasounds and all has been leading up to when my body is ready for the “harvesting.” Sounds so invasive and scary when I use that word. HA! DUN DUN DUN! After my last ultrasound they told me that my right ovary was producing many follicles but the left was not at all. We barely saw any on the monitors and that was concerning. The Bellingham clinic informed me that I needed to go see SRM right away and get the final word from the doctors. Great! More Ultrasounds and blood work on Sunday May 19th. SRM determined the same thing. Righty was doing its job and we saw LOTS of follicles on the monitors but Lefty was difficult to find in general and also had like 2 follicles which was concerning. Those silly ovaries have been giving us all a scare that they are not producing as they should and not responding to all the shots. Dr Lin determined though that my body was as ready as it would ever be and we should schedule the retrieval appt for Tuesday.

Ready
 

Set

Go!

Deep breaths—ready to be done dreaming…

Happy lil Folicles

Never have I ever been more excited during an internal ultrasound. I mean ewww.   Right ladies?  I hate those things!  But Miles was with me in the room as we met my new nurse Michelle.  SHE WAS AWESOME! I have never felt more comfortable in the most uncomfortable and vulnerable position.  My feet are in the stirrups and we were just chatting away as if we had known each other for years. Her calming nature made me feel at ease and she walked both Miles and I through all the pictures flashing on the 3D monitor.  She showed us all of the tiny lil follicles inside my ovaries and it was so encouraging.  She saw no cysts and assured us that everything looked “happy and perfect”.  She is vey invested in her patients.  She has pictures of her patient’s embryo babies on her phone.  She prays for them and talks to them daily.  Might sound a little odd but it melted my heart.   I LOVE HER! I have never said that about someone like her before, a NURSE.  She was wonderful.  Michelle gave me permission to call her after hours with any questions I have throughout this entire process.  WHO DOES THAT?  She also walked me through the more intense shots starting this weekend.  It was great to have Miles there to learn the multi step processes and how to switch needles and hand mix the different medicines.  My Dude really impressed me.  Happy.  She saw LOTS of happy little follicles.  That is good news.  And we got a glimpse of something GOOD on the monitors. Thus far those ultrasounds have shown nothing but bad news—from cysts on my ovaries to tubal pregnancies. Never has and ultrasound ended with good news. I was pretty excited. 
I needed this.  I needed to focus happy on something. 

Could I be ready to start to dream?